“All my life I have been a messed up person, raised
on the streets, doing drugs and part of the gang life. Then on Friday at the
bible study I fell down and cried like I had never cried before. That day I was trying to talk to God and it
was a hot day and all of a sudden a big old wind began to blow. I knew it was God trying to tell me
something, trying to get me back up on
my feet. So I did and that day I
received Christ in my life. I am really happy I did it and the bible study
teacher told me there is going to be a lot of temptations and people trying to
bring me down but now I know that God is going to be there all my life and that
is all I have to say.”  Will I I
have failed today but will I fail tomorrow? Will I learn from nothing of what life
throws into my path or will it take my life to catch my ignorant ways, my
sinful ways?
Have
I learned my lesson or will I fail again till I just give up hope, till I die? Will I choose to succeed? Do I love myself or
do I even care of what is in store for me to do? Do I care about my parents or
their hurt? Will I, can I break the
cycle of hurt, pain or disgust? Will I
save myself and accept God or will I fall into self pity? Will I catch myself in an unhealthy thought,
or will I kill those who love me more and more each day?
Justin
Dear
Church at Pegasus!
Boy have I missed your guys!!! I would have written sooner but it has taken
a while to get settled and out of boxes and I was hoping to have a working
computer and printer by now so I could just email a letter to you all – but – I
don’t so poor Ms Lindy will have to deal with my lousy handwriting. But trust me “You are not forgotten.”
I love Nashville. We have had snow a couple of times and lot’s
of rain but it is warming up a bit now and you should see all the blossoming
trees! White and pink and purple and
green – everywhere is coming alive with color.
It is very hilly here with mountains all around. I can’t see the sunsets very well from here
but out my front door the view is a stunning picture of God’s creation complete
with more types of birds than I could ever imagine.
My kids love their schools and my husband loves his job. My son needs a job really bad so you could
pray for that.
We have been attending the most awesome church. The worship is wonderful and I can’t tell you
how amazing the musicians are. Six of
their musicians have been nominated for “Dove” awards – that is the Christian
Music Industry version of a “Grammy” award.
But you would never know it by how they work together in worshiping the
Lord. All egos are out the door. So it is wonderful to be a part of that, and
to see so many who could be off doing a solo gig or getting recognition just
for there. They just come each week as a
humble servant to give the best they have.
I do however wish I could hop a jet each Sunday morning and
be with you there. I pray for you all
the time but especially on Sunday mornings.
That God would continue to rain down His grace on you all and that each
one of you would feel His presence there.
I keep your “Imagine” book out where I can see it everyday
and I can never thank you enough for your kind words, prayers and pictures.
I want to encourage you to keep moving forward and trust God
that He will carry you through. It is not always easy and I don’t think
it is ever perfect, but it is enough and God will never leave you or forsake
you. You need to know that it is an
ongoing journey that is never complete until we reach heaven and see our Savior
face to face. Even for me now, as it will
be for you when you leave Pegasus, there are new challenges.
For the first time since I was 15 years old I don’t have a
car. I don’t have access to a
computer. I don’t have any money to buy anything
for my house! I can’t even afford to get
my hair cut! (Or colored! Ugh).
So I could say to God “Why did you bring me here to this
wonderful place and then desert me! I
have no car, no money, no friends, no Pegasus, no job! And trust me it is easy to let yourself go
there, if your faith in God is built on circumstances and the “stuff” of this
world.
So instead I say “Thank you God for providing this amazing
200 year old house with all the beautiful trees and birds and land. And thank you that over time we will be able to
fill it full of memories and the things that You want us to have that will
bring You glory. And thank You that
because we can’t afford to go out to eat we are cooking a healthy dinner at
home every night and playing games together as a family. Thank you Lord that even though I don’t have
a car the school bus picks up and drops off my kids right in front of my house
and that because I don’t have a job yet I can spend time walking and talking
with you.
Thank you Father that even though it is tight and scary you
have proven yourself faithful so many times before I need just to pray and rest
in You. For you will provide all we need.
Well guys, I am so proud of how you have persevered and
carried on. Ms. Lyndee has kept me up to
date on all that I going on and I am very proud of you all. Don’t stop!
Don’t give up! Don’t give in.
Sing out and smile when you sing and thank the Lord for all
He has done.
I love you and miss you all so much! And to those who are new and don’t know
me? Well, just know that I am glad
you’re here and God has a very special place for you there at Pegasus. Just don’t stop moving forward cause “You
can’t even imagine!”
In His Name
Ms. Pam
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